Hey everybody thank you for the invite to join your wonderful network. I decided to sign up today when I fell off the wagon, I'll post a little about myself....
I've been growing increasingly anxious about flying since a bad flight I experienced 10 long years ago. I completely blocked the event out of my mind until one year later when I got on another aeroplane. Suddenly I remembered everything and spent the next 6 hours, expecting to fall out of the sky at any given moment. Literally, it was the longest 6 hours of my entire life, at no point did the fear subside in the slighest. I have forced myself to fly every year since then, expecting to get better, but each time the anxiety grows steadily worse. I've been determined to keep going and, until today, I have been reinforced by the pride my wife feels each time I overcome my fears.
My passion in life, is to experience far flung, remote cultures and learn as much as I can about this world we live in, so it's kind of necessary that I overcome this irrational problem.
Six months ago I would not have been able to travel for my honeymoon without the diazepam that my doctor prescribed me. I was thankful for it but, it would seem on my part, taking these drugs was a huge mistake. This time around, instead of the anxiety and fear striking me at the airport as per usual, it hit me before I was able to leave my home.
It was an absolutely debilitating experience, it left me with no doubt that I wouldn't be able to cope navigating from A to B, having the thought of the return flight in my mind. I literally couldn't cope with anything and was physically ill. I never even left the house.
I have missed an opportunity and dissappointed my wife, who incidently, had to get the plane for work. She is now deprived of our subsequent holiday. The strange thing is, my fear is not just for my own safety. She doesn't arrive for another 33 minutes and I have spent the last 12 hours checking with flightstats to see her plane is still in the air.
I'm interested to hear from anybody that has been managed to overcome such overwhelming fear. If you can recommend a course of action that would be brilliant. I need to turn this situation around, so that I can start getting better instead of steadily worse. I know this exists only in my head, but my fear manifests spontaneously at just the thought of being near a plane. I think that I would quake in an airport, even if I wasn't getting onto a plane.
I want to give my wife the holiday she deserves, I'll try anything.