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I think you can't become a pilot if you have fear of flight because you will be tested by psychologists before you become one, so I think you'll never pass the tests :)
You could try to buy powerful computer and install some flight simulator games. It could get you some idea about the planes and how they work. I've never tried that, but I think it could help.