Perhaps writing down why I am so petrified of flying may be of some help in overcoming my fear.
I am a third year medical student at the University of Manchester, and I have just started my clinical years. During the course of my studies and work experience I have seen all the kinds of things shown on TVs, only without the perfect make up and hair.
I have witnessed countless deaths, most through chronic conditions which caused the patients to slip away slowly and sometimes in agonising pain. Strangely, during the actual deaths (because death can take anywhere from seconds to days to unfold) I was calm, composed and cold headedly managing to do my job. Most people would see this as a feat in itself, and I am not unaware that it isn't for anybody.
But these days I board a plane, and promptly have a panic attack. It takes me months to prepare myself for a flight, and I now need high doses of valium to simply get through take off. I cannot express the anguish and fear that overcome me when I reach the airport. My hear rate hits the ceiling, my breathing becomes difficult and the colour drains from my cheeks. I completely lose touch with reality and go back to a state of infancy with no control over my emotions. I can no longer sleep on flights, and it takes me days to recover. I start smoking or nicotine therapy like clockwork when I know I have to fly and I feel stupid, weak and self indulgent just talking about this fear.
I have seen people face fear in ways which no human being should have to. Not only did these people face their fears, some of them overcame it.
I am begging for help to be able to do the same thing, because I fear that this is the tip of the iceberg. I fear that I have channeled all my fears about death and our mortality as humans into flying, because I see it as such an immediate and unavoidable threat to my life. I fear that this is going to have an impact on my future job, and that I won't be able to use my gift to carry out my job, and save people.
I hope that sharing the deepest of my fears will slowly help me overcome them, and I hope that by sharing this information with you that someone will, if not give me an answer (which I don't expect), at least be able to share with me how they managed to overcome or at least manage their fear, and face it like a man.
Thank you in advance, and please ask if you have any questions. Also, if I can be of any assistance to anyone who fears anything medical please do not hesitate!