A while back I posted how I failed to go to Berlin for my 30th last March and ended up getting off the plane before we took off. The fear was imense, I escaped yet felt ashamed of my lack of coping mechanism.
Last August I went to Greece and back and managed to handle the flights much better after reading the book/listening to the tape.
I booked to go to Berlin on the 26th Feb, which is for my wife's 30th and its fast approaching! I've been reading the book again and listening to the tape almost religiously but I'm feeling more nervous this time than when I went to Greece.
Seems I'm stuck in a relapse but Im desperate to prove to myself that I can go to Berlin, not just for me but for my wife also (my fear of flying has affected her greatly which I'm not proud of, she is as bad as me now and she travelled the world).
Why am I so scarred? Is it thoughts of what happened last time I went to Berlin? I have many fears about flying (mainly mechanical and trusting the pilots), I know all the facts and believe in what is said but sometimes my over active thoughts just swamp my judgement....
I want to get to Berlin, I want to drink German beer and eat currywurst