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Hi to everyone and thank you for exiting cause your help its important to me.
I am 27, i leave in Thessaloniki, Greece. I have traveled a lot in my life. (Europe, Dubai, Morocco, New York, Miami). I wasn't fear or i have to say that i was very comfortable in a plane. It all started when the flight 522 of Helios airlines have crashed here in Greece. In that flight were a couple that my father knew. They left 2 kids behind them. After that i start thinking that maybe its not all that safe.
After my 2 trips in America, flight 447 of Air France crashed. Then my fear started to growing. I was for 6 month in Brussels. During my stay there, i was traveling a lot alone. It wasn't easy. I was lucky cause there were no turbulence at all. But i couldn't read or listen music. Just watching my watch and countdown. I was very nervous.
Last year i went to London. On the way back there was turbulence (it was not a big deal but to me that moment was a nightmare) i wanted to start crying. My Friend felt asleep. I was so happy when we landed. (that's why i love landings) that i said to myself " next flight only with anesthesia". Since then i flew 2 times, One to Germany with my boyfriend last november. It was a good flight but i was holding his hand tight all the way. The second time was to Athens. I had already read the book "fear of flying". I was looking forward to test myself. I was alone and there was some turbulence on the way back. I felt horrible and It was only a 40 min flight....Its such a same.
The thing is.... I love traveling. I love airports, i love planes. My work is really close to the airport and i watch everyday planes taking off. I love watching them. I admire the all manufacture. I just can't stand them anymore. I don't trust them and i believe in people mistakes. I am a "what if`" person. I search on the web about previous planes that have crashed, about bad turbulence or bird strikes (big mistake but its all in front of me). I don't fear of heights and i am not a claustrophobic. Just planes...
Next week i am going alone to Amsterdam via Rome. I regretted to make that trip the moment i have booked the tickets.i think about it all day. I am scared. I am searching to go by train. It takes 2 days. My boyfriend says no. I want badly to go by train. At least from Rome to Amsterdam. He is the only one that knows about this fear. Not even my mother.I feel stupid and embarrassed. I don't know what to do. I am going to read the book again. At least the first part. I am soooo stupid ...every time is worse than the previous one. I want to be one of those who sleeps, reads, work on a plane and they are very cool.... i think i never be one of them.... :(